"When an inner situation is not made conscious,
it happens outside as fate."
The fears we hold secretly inside ourselves will birth themselves in our lives as a challenging situation or person, if we don't heed the call within to heal, to change.
We all know that feeling of discomfort, of frustration, of anxiety, of emptiness. The food, the praise, the wine, the money, the hugs, the 'prize', offers a temporary high. Recognising the discomfort when it happens is our chance for changing.
We rarely take these.
If you are arrogant, you will encounter opportunities to humble yourself. If you are impatient you will encounter opportunities to wait. If you push for anything but authenticity, you will find yourself exposed.
I call them opportunities, many call them problems.
Sometimes we become too comfortable and a little smug when we are evolving, so we project again externally, our Souls say, okay, let's see if you really get it.
In my time here (at in-laws' home) I have been severely restricted, shoved into roles, piled with expectations, and I have been humbled. I fought it.
Some super sensitive spots were being prodded. And I felt as if I were in a battle to save my Self. Yet I knew my soul created this, so I breathed, stopped fighting, and learned.
It's often through sickness that we find a deep or final push for change. My body broke down, then my mind felt dissolved, finally I surrendered, and worked alongside my Arrogance Shadow. The battle wasn't for Self against Others, but for inner Self-healing.
Work of 10 years, deep painful work of 3. Now broken open.
The wounded little girl can now rest, unafraid of dragons.